I can make myself cry by talking to myself about stupid things, such as when YouTube was still a good place, or why life exists, or by telling myself I'm crazy for talking to myself. I know part of it is loneliness, as I miss my friend Carter, and I know I can reach out to my family but it's just not the same. Heck, I teared up a little typing this. I'm not technically mentally healthy. I'm not crazy or anything, but I have constant mood swings which is another part of the reason why I cry. School starts in a few weeks, so that's good, but I feel like it won't come soon enough. I think I have a problem, but I'd need your guys' opinion on that.