Again ... Your question/statement makes no sense in English.
You seem to have a fascination with sex or rape of your cousins.
You also seem to believe that sex and rape are the same thing, or equivalent.
You also seem confused that "asexual" means you will NEVER have sex. That is not the case. Asexual is often a temporary condition. EG: Pre-pubescent children are asexual. As are many older people.