This one is a difficult one so I am taking an educated guess.....
During the first few days of grieving the loss of a loved one you are in an anoesis state of mind.
Anoesis : Your word of the day for my lovely wordsmiths. Use it in a sentence (?)
Anoesis dropped his sword and cried, "Oh, what have I done".
If you understand anoesis, you understand what makes Donald Trump tick (-tock---cookoo clock).